the ONLY SORRY I’ve EVER be ...

here i STAND today
FACING you upfront
SOMETHING i had to do
for something i had DONE

yes i KNOW
CRYING is not the way
and i realise this is not FUN
but WHAT can i do
life's been so UNDONE

yes i knew you were RIGHT
yes i knew i was WRONG
up all the WAY through
from the place where WE begun

YES i was wrong
so DAMN what ?
why should i ALWAYS be right ?
in this damn f***ed up WORLD

yeah YEAH yeah
i know what THEY say
they say am CROOKED
but NONETHELESS are they

oh yeah TRUE
that's not WHO i am
and you know this COZ
you ACTUALLY know who i am

i know am not PERFECT
you know neither is GOD
may be thats what the PROBLEM is
may be thats where we LOST

may be i was my WORST enemy
may be i was just SCARED
scared of RESENTMENT
becoming my own DESPAIR

yes i know we didn't PLAN this
then again who can plan LIFE ?
life is always a STRUGGLE
and that's why we call it a FIGHT

belief trust and LOVE
was all you ever SHOWERED
and LOOK what i gave you
being such a COWARD

wish i was STRONGER
when i TRULY needed to be
now that the TIME has past
i have finally become a MAN that is me

dont know what i MEANT to you
DONT even know what i meant to me
all i know is you meant a LOT
although that i FAILED to see

yes i was BLIND
from the beginning till the END
coz what i was truly DOING
was just following a fake TREND

this false PRETENSE i walked with
was what had DRIVEN me blind
NOW that i can see
i am trying to REALIGN

no i don't care if the WORLD's reading
read ALL that i have wrote
just be sure to READ the sorry
that is all what i HOPE

never would have been GLOOMY
never would have even TRIED
but what could i DO
you never CEASE to FLOURISH from my eye

yea i know FORGIVENESS is difficult
yea i know its so HARD
but if there is ANYONE in the world
you are the ONLY one who can try

they say EVERYTHING HAPPENS for a reason
and they say the ultimate REASON is FATE
but fate is an EXCUSE, just to VINDICATE

they say time is the greatest HEALER
they say TIME forgives all
may be thats why you should FORGIVE me
for the sake of the time when we ENTHRALLED

knowing WHO you really are
you really wouldn't CARE
but may be you KNOWING who i really am
might help you forgive my ERR

yeah those were LOUSY excuses
which shouldn't make SENSE at all
but i couldn't find better ALIBIS
to make you COMMEND MY FAULT

An Analogue with Words....

As human beings, we display a lot of love for spoken words. We tend to listen and analyse words spoken to us with more deliberate effort than we think we do! It is definitely a magical world. And oh don't we love playing with them with all our soul!

It is remarkable how sometimes the most simply said words can either lighten or dampen the spirit of listener. Words like “I shall be there" or “I know what you mean" have this magical capacity to fill the listener with love, joy and confidence. If you have ever seen the expressions on a kids face, when it is afraid of dark and is comforted tenderly by its mother in a few spoken words like “I am with you", you would know what it means.  Or from the face of a stressful soul, who lets say has just separated from spouse, a few words from a close friend like” I shall always be there" and” Don't worry, we'll move over" can be a step towards instilling peace and faith, can't they?

While on the other hand, again words like" I don't care" and " It doesn't look promising enough" can dampen the spirit of listener to an extent which sometimes might not be comprehensible from a length. But how grave can be the effect when a person is already going through a rough patch, is understandable. Imagine the inner turbulence of a person whose wife is fighting with an incurable disease, who has to put up a brave face all the time in front of his beloved, and whose boss doesn't approve of any work or idea that this person presents before his boss. Its not difficult to understand how wretched the person will feel in this scenario.

And its not only listening but also speaking out words that interests most of us while in a conversation. People do not make deliberated efforts in selecting words to communicate, whether they are aware of their choices or not. That the subconscious plays an important role while words are directed towards someone cannot be underestimated. Also, mostly, people are able to judge the effect of the words spoken by them as soon as these words are out. But still not many take care to think before they speak.

Leaving aside the people who are engaged in the world of ' word business' like lyricists, writers, theater personalities, media persons or for that matter politicians, all of whom tend to target a larger audience and are therefore very much concerned with the words they let out and also the way, a high percentage of the rest do not take it as essential aspect of everyday communication.

Socrates says that the best life and the life most suited to human beings involved reasoning. But do we always involve ourselves in reasoning when we speak out our minds or when we are listening?

 Words are remarkable ways to express oneself. Won't the interactions be compelling if more thinking and reasoning is applied where the process of exchange of thoughts, beliefs, ideas or mere information is concerned.